Fucked up

Fucked up, this is how I feel, all fucked up because
I can't find this little bit of love, understanding
and other emotions I want to share with her.
But I don't think she knows. If she knows
that I love her and that I want to love
her with all of my heart and soul. But still
I'm fucked up, I can't help it maybe it's my
fault. No this is my fault, I've expected too
much of her and now I think she loves me
but I know that it is not true.
When I see her with her friends I wake up
from my shallow dream and realize that it's
all fiction, shit that's never gonna happen because
I'm all fucked up

(To Sarah)