Forgotten

I thought myself lost

in a meaningless existence.

Where days passed by without change.

Without hope.

Until I saw her.

She became a spark in my life.

She's the fire I feel inside of me.

I rose like a phoenix 

from the ashes of my past.

I'm stronger when I'm with her,

as if she lifts me up above my limits.

Showing me what I had forgotten about myself.

All the love and gentle sides

which I thought were lost.

Resurrected by her smiling face.

Intertwined

My fingers gently follow the soft curve of her skin.

Lost in the moment

fingers intertwined.

I see her smile shining brightly 

in the dim lit room.

Her body feels so warm

it sends a shiver through my spine.

I never would've dreamt I would feel like this again.

Never would I've hoped to feel this safe.

She captures my mind with a mere word.

And I never want to let go.

Her hair tickles my face 

but I just don't want to let her go.

So I breathe her in 

and fight the coming dawn.

Safe From

After so long I stand here and wait,

longing for a word from her.

I can't help but to feel so curious,

I want to know more about her.

But my boundless patience now seems lost,

and I crave to see her again.

I want to talk the night away,

and feel like she somehow understands.

Understands that I want hold her hand

when she needs it.

That I want to hold her

when the night is cold.

I just want to save her from feeling alone

like I have felt before.

The Way

There used to be a time,

where we were the tried and true.

And from those memories I found love 

in this sobriety.

But everything faded.

And I found myself in a place 

where I couldn't remember the way I used to be.

I lost my old self along the way.

Trapped in this life,

this loveless life.

Stuck in my skin,

my transparent skin.

And yet I will always remember

the way you used to be.

No Need

Focused on the things I thought I needed.

As if I'd die without them.

Desperately grasping around me,

and everyone loved.

I saw it everywhere I looked,

happiness for all.

But for me, only sadness seemed destined.

I held on to that notion for so fucking long.

Breaking away from myself,

bit by bit,

day by day.

Until I saw what I had achieved by this.

I denied myself my full potential.

I was held back by nobody,

but myself.

No more need to hold on

to petty feelings.

Last Light

I used to love her,

every minute of every day.

I stared at the fading light,

the days inevitable end.

Never did I dare to compare it 

to what we had.

But everything ends beyond our will.

So sometimes I ask myself

can I grow beyond myself?

Is it possible to attain this fabled happiness,

and let go the things that hold me down?

All these questions never get any answers.

Only diversions draws my attention away 

for a few moments.

I shouldn't be disappointed when no one comes.

Blinded

I sit and wait 

for the day to be blinded.

Blinded by the light,

the sun shining on my face.

I can't recall anything but the night,

leaving me abandoned in the dark...

Have I forgotten what it feels like

to love?

I'm lost and alone in my head

and I can't make sense of myself.

I need to find a simple way

to make this pain just disappear.

I know I'll never feel 

safe in my own skin.