Failure

What would become of me if I should fall from the angels’ grace?
If I fail in my attempts to live this life, trying to succeed
in my enterprises. How would this affect my state today?
Would the people around me abandon me? Stop loving me
because I fail at what I try?
Because I have to get around with the knowledge and degree
that I have, forced to live of the many jobs which I have
to accept. Looking for better chances with the knowledge that
I’ve could have been so much more if I was only brighter.
I can’t help myself, I try so hard and yet it makes no
difference. Will you still love me when I fail? If I
would be working while I should be in the next year gathering
the knowledge for a better future. Would you care and
put me aside? I have these dreams where my fears
become real, showing me how it’s all going to be like.
How you leave me, standing there alone looking at
how you turn your back and leave me.
Then I awake and feel like crying, I don’t want it all
to come to this. If I were only smarter…