Unspoken words

Don't you know?
Didn't you ever realized?
Things never turn out the way
you'd like them to.
Forget perfection and focus on who
you are. Realize that you're
miserable. Open your eyes and
see that you're owned by the
things you own.
Do you even know?
Can you feel that shadow
standing behind you?
Watching over you from the
corner of the room.
Can you taste
the unspoken words that flow
through the air?
Don't you realize how you feel?

Solutions

Finding truth in this.
Meeting myself in ugliness.
Trying to achieve happiness through
acts of despair.
Finding truth in my goals
but lacking the means to achieve.
Your signs made me believe in you.
Kept my hopes alive through hours
of darkness.
I followed your light, slowly clamping
onto my beliefs.
When I thought I could reach out.
To show what had lived in me.
I find myself in front of a wall,
with no ray of light cracking
through.

Dreams of hope

Dreams of the past.
Nightmares of the present.
Lying asleep in the vasteness of the night.
Half conscious of my existence while my
soul roams unknown plains.
Not knowing whether the dream
is real or the reality false.
Don't know for sure if I'm still alive...
Empty thoughts are my only certainty
for all knowledge is so vague.
As I awake in hollow pain, I realise.
Found out it's worse than the nightmares
and the dreams seem unattainable.
Finding myself stuck in my own mind.
Unable of letting go.
The impossibility of feelings.

Neglect

sick of this all
too weak to continue
too numb to feel
too tired to resist

i'm so sick of this all
so sick of me

Feeling neglected by the only person i really care for...
ignoring myself

so sick of myself
so sick of this

won't anybody take this life
use it for whatever
for it is of no use to me anymore

laid waste to my soul
killed my own
arose from nothing
fallen from grace
returned to nothing

so sick of my life