Bang

Bang, a shot in the broad daylight. Another Homie falls
to the ground, struck by a blow. More powerfull
than anything on earth. The kiss of death is bitter.
As he lies there in agony he thinks of the past.
A past that was 2 perfect for the both of them.
He and the chosen one, the one he loved.
And when he sees her face slipping away a
tear runs from his face.

Pain made to order

I have died. Killed by the one I loved.
Killed by a blow that I didn't see coming,
never expecting that to happen.
I'm sorry if you thought that I was laughing
with the situation. It's my way to hide the
pain.
I'm sorry if I didn't fought enough 4 our love.
I'm sorry that I didn't seem to care, but believe
me I've never felt so bad after a break-up. Never...
I'm sorry that we can't be together anymore.
I hope you may be happy one day while I'll
be sitting in a corner crying and thinking of the
best time of my life...

Fear

Your emotions 4 me are 2 good.
I don't disserve them. It seems like I
can't take the doubts away, even if I try
as hard as I can.
I want to comfort you, tell you that
everything's gonna be okay.
The fear inside of you, the fear 4 the
future, shouldn't be there.
Fuck the future, there's no
future, there's only now...
Now when I'm with you.
I know I've said a lot of shit
but remember that I love
You. And all the bad things that
are going to happen won't be
so bad cuz I'll always be
there to support and protect you

Never

I never wanna lose you.
It looks like I'm afraid of being alone again.
Knowing that no one out there would care for
me. That I would be a shadow in the dark.
Living alone in a fucked up neighbourhood, thinking
of the past. Like it was a dream, an illusion.
Then I realize it's the reality and that it's right
in front of me.
The "illusion" is real. You are standing there, so
beautiful, so fragile. My all, my most
precious treasure.
I'm scared for the future, every day is
torture. Every day without you I'm dying,
over and over again.
Living in agony, a pain that never dies.
Hoping and praying that you would never
leave me, though I know this love can't
be eternal.
But when I see you I know I'll fight 'till
death to keep loving you, cuz you are
worth it.

4U

Why did I wait so long?
Knowing that you were all alone.
I thought that I wouldn't stand a chance.
I didn't know better.
I've been waiting 4ever, waiting 4 the perfect
moment. Every second, thinking and longing 4 U.
When you were around, feeling lonely, I was
watching, admiring.
Looking at your beautifull face, trying to catch
a glimp of your deep brown eyes.
I had to try.
I knew that I had to take the first step.
Now I'm the one. The one
you love.
I'm so gratefull that I can't tell you how
I feel. There's no way I can pay you
back, but my plan is 2 show you that
I understand.
I love U, and only U.

(Dedicated to Elke)

Fucked up

Fucked up, this is how I feel, all fucked up because
I can't find this little bit of love, understanding
and other emotions I want to share with her.
But I don't think she knows. If she knows
that I love her and that I want to love
her with all of my heart and soul. But still
I'm fucked up, I can't help it maybe it's my
fault. No this is my fault, I've expected too
much of her and now I think she loves me
but I know that it is not true.
When I see her with her friends I wake up
from my shallow dream and realize that it's
all fiction, shit that's never gonna happen because
I'm all fucked up

(To Sarah)

X-mas

There's no snow.
But it's so very cold outside.
Everybody's hurrying to get home.
To go to their family or lovers.
Me?
I'm walking through the streets,
on my own. Nowhere to go or no
place to stay, wandering in the orange street-lights.
Suddenly, it starts snowing and I stop to
watch the first crystals coming down.
Then I continue in the search of some bar.
To walk in and drink my misery away