Winding road

Desolate ways to forest roads down
to her so far away.
In the depths of night following the winding road.
History of emotions.
A heart full of love, joy and life.
A heart full of sadness, sorrow and despair.
A heart full of grief, pain and regrets.
But always a heart filled
with her.
Years later, a trip down into the past.
Welcomed by all I've left behind.
The empty road as my only friend.

Withered soul

Plagued by visions of times long passed.
Able to hear those hollow words once more.
Feeling empty, meaningless and absurd.
Why does feeling feel like an darkened abyss...
Lost in ancient thougths unable to release.
Unable to let loose of the visions replaying
in my soul.
You are ever there, cause of my withered soul.
Numbed beyond sight, reaching in the blur.
Trying to catch the star that shone.
Nothing but darkness,
like all stars fell from heaven.
Something gently rustles the leaves in the
colourful autumn night.
Leaves as withered as this tired soul.

Sleepless soul

Cold serenity as the snowflakes twirl down
from the ever dormant sky.
Distant notes carried forth by an
atmosphere at peace.
A sleepless soul calms down and stares...
Perfect crystals tumble from the heavens
Soothing the burning anxiety.
Sweet lullabies create a sleep full of
winged emotions.
As they gently fade they leave this soul
forever trapped
in the slumbering embrace.

High & dry

Alone I walk the mountainroad.
with my head in the clouds
so far apart from the one I need.
The summit seems unreal
Leaving me high and dry.
Clueless about distance without
any certainties.
The damp dabs my being.
Lost inside the mist where
the roads cease to exist.
My heart burns and pounds.
So I move on,
ignoring my chilled bones
and lone feelings.
Replacing them with something more.
And hope breaks through the fog.

Keep me whole

Back in the beginning I never
really knew just what to expect.
So much anxiety of being in love
once more.
Afraid to open up and put my
trust in you.
Terrified of ever being hurt again
and end up in solitude.
Will you ever create despair?
Will you ever give me grief?
Those were my thoughts 'till I
just let loose.
Banned my painful past and
accepted my present love.
Finding you here makes me feel,
brings me warmth & solace.
You know my soul
and hope you never let go.

White Noise

Silence swerves in this place
searching for the dying sounds...
All seems ever so eternally still
amidst this ever revolving world.
Leaves are mute as the wind stops sighing.
Even the twinkling stars enjoy this peaceful
moment in the cold autumn night.
I'm just inhaling it all in a state of inner peace.
One with the silence
Empty of grief and despair.
This white noise surrounds my soul.
It takes me far away. Right there
where I would like
to be.

Inside

All the sweet words and softest gestures that
you gave. You presence while you're far away.
I've taken it inside, as I feel you in my heart.
The rain stopped pouring on me and the flood
of tears has ceased.
Your gentle understanding and mutual thoughts
set me free.
Freed my mind to tell it all. Shared experiences,
advice and support as you need it.
Made me feel special as you speak your truth.
I wish I could take your pains away and
cast them away in the black starry night.
Let me show you how much you mean to me.
And I do know the words, but I don't dare to speak them
to you.
You know I'll be there like you want me to be...
(Dedicated to Fietje)