I am nothing

Wondering why I live, why I soil this world...
Left with no one in my life. I am so alone.
I don't want to be left behind, alone in my bedroom.
Alone with my pain. I am nothing.
I'm already dead to this world.
Never born, never grown, never loved, only the
constant pain under my skin. It feels like I
have a fucking needle in my head.
Afraid of death but yet I'm dying in my head.
Rotting away the few memories that I have.
And in the end there's only the pain that
won't go away.