Lost love

As I sit here in the middle of the afternoon, wondering
why, a tear runs from my face.
I look up at the black sky.
There's no more sun and all the stars have died.
Total darkness, in the sky, in my mind,
in my heart.
I can't even feel the love anymore,
the love for life,the love for my friends.
I'm still staring into the black hole above me.
I hear a baby crying and can't stand it anymore.
I fall, face to the floor. I'm (SIC) of myself.
Can't stand to ever look at my face again.
I despise myself and start crying.
Still wondering why, I lay crying on the
floor, totally paralized.
All I wanted life was to be happy