Outsider

Confusing days with strange pleasant emotions. Cover
me up with dust before I confess my thoughts.
What is up with all of this? I like her so much and
yet I don't know why.
Is this love or just a thing to be? Holding back what
I think, hiding my doubt untill I'm sure.
Is this what I want or do I continue like a freak in
pain? Suffering with bad feelings and misery in my
trail. Is this all just some game?
Where the winner takes the blame while the loser points
and screams. Playing around with my feelings just
to strike and break what is left.
Or is it indeed what I hope it is. Finally true love,
honest and sincere. Which crawls under ones skin
just to empoison the whole body.
Help me out, help me get in. Will someone help...