Cursed The Day

Your thoughts and words still linger in my head.
After two lifetimes and countless hours,
I still carry the weight of my decisions.
It took me a year to understand.
Yet I still feel like I failed us then.
So young and inexperienced,
often acting too rashly.
What else could I do but fall face down?
When I heard you said you
didn't love me as much as you used to.
How could I rise above this
when my heart was too heavy to carry on?
I cried and cursed the day
my star fell from the heavens.
For I had no more guidance
to show me the way
in my starless existence.