From The Gut

I'm trying to look you in the eyes
and fill the void inside of me.
And as I get a glimpse and stare into your soul,
it seems this void can not be filled.
My expectations always were high and
I never imagined you would let me down.
But sometimes I feel this all just can't be real.
And then I feel this way.
I can taste the ash in my mouth
And the burning feeling within made way
for an emptiness unknown.

Inner Prison

Come and teach me the perfect balance.
How to achieve the life I need to survive.
Learn to see all the things around me,
to hear through all the noise and
listen to the things that matter.
If I could know how to see within myself,
I could rid myself from my nuisances.
But how could I learn when there's
nobody around to teach me.
When everyone is too preoccupied with themselves.
And nobody's released from their inner prison.
How can we ever lead a better life
when there's always someone around
to drag us down.

Wasting Away

I don't want to be here,
don't feel like doing anything at all.
I just want to waste my time
anywhere but here.
To lay somewhere not doing a thing
safely in the shades shielded from the sun.
I remember a time where that life
was still possible.
Where once my days were peaceful and trite.
But back then it all felt so right.
That life's gone forever and has made
way for the prosperous one I lead now.
Where I run from one thing to the next
without ever catching my breath.
How much longer until I run into
a wall with my head in first?
I just want some time for myself.

In Your Honor

I dedicate this life to all the people
who helped me become what I am today.
Through all the things I had to be
pulled and carried into succes.
All the people who believed and loved me.
And all those I profoundly loved.
You made me give the best of me in my worst times.
I'm even thankful for those who
I got to hate along the way.
Without the betrayal and the hurt
I would never have made it this far.
I've learned from each and every one of you.
And nowadays I try to be the best that I can.
All in your honor.

Not Afraid

Ten years, a changed man.
Hardened by the harsh lessons of life.
Survived the best and worst he encountered.
And once in a while he got a beating,
but the way he saw it,
everybody gets a beating sometimes.
So he just slept in the bed he had made
and learned from his countless mistakes.
In retrospect he can't grasp how much has changed.
From the boy who used to be nobody
into the man he is today.
The boy who walked the path of life
and chose to live it his own way.
Not afraid to break from the conventional,
he stands apart from the crowd.
Not afraid of the next ten years to come.

Changed Streets

Left inside the dead of night.
I see the boring orange street lights.
It used to be different
when all the lights shone white.
Now, all the things I see
have replaced all I used to know and love.
These streets have changed as much
as my life has in all these years.
Now a man, able to stand on my own.
Even if there's no one else and I'm all alone.
Where did that young boy go?
The one who used to look at this world
as with new eyes, still able to see all the beauty.
Seems he grew up to believe that nothing stays forever.
That all we do is in vain.
And all that's left is the infinite pain.

Immaculate Image

As I go on in life, I try to match
my actions and my state of mind.
Rarely I stop to take a look around
and discover what everyone thinks of me.
While busy living my life I tend
to forget about the impact I leave behind.
How do you look at me these days?
What do you see and how accurate
do you believe that image to be?
Please take a closer look into my view.
And believe what you see is the truth.
I will never betray you, because
I wouldn't be able to live with myself.
We were all born to bleed,
but I will never be the cause of your grief.
As long as you want me to.

First Light

There she stood
like a diamond amidst the ashes of the past.
In this world she shines unlike anything else.
Wish I could be the same,
to shine a light into the worlds of others.
If even a bit of starlight I would be content,
and my life would not be in vain.
I love the perfection of her imperfection.
She's the promise of a beautiful day,
the hint of first light after a long dark night.
Someone you'll never cease to remember,
no matter what age you might become.
Ever haunted by the image of a perfect world.
It would drive you crazy
if you had never seen the first light.

Despite It All

Countless times I catch myself in
making the same mistake.
And everytime again I shield myself
from the consequences of my actions.
It's so easy to get lured in and lose your head.
But you got to be strong and true instead.
How's it possible that I always cross that path?
Like a highway, hazardous to pass.
Yet I'm drawn in by some kind of violent force.
Just so that history can repeat itself again.
Making me stronger each time I survive.
Every time I get back up and
knock the dust off from my clothes,
I know I'll make it one day.
Despite all the hardships I'll never give up.