Last Light

I used to love her,

every minute of every day.

I stared at the fading light,

the days inevitable end.

Never did I dare to compare it 

to what we had.

But everything ends beyond our will.

So sometimes I ask myself

can I grow beyond myself?

Is it possible to attain this fabled happiness,

and let go the things that hold me down?

All these questions never get any answers.

Only diversions draws my attention away 

for a few moments.

I shouldn't be disappointed when no one comes.

Blinded

I sit and wait 

for the day to be blinded.

Blinded by the light,

the sun shining on my face.

I can't recall anything but the night,

leaving me abandoned in the dark...

Have I forgotten what it feels like

to love?

I'm lost and alone in my head

and I can't make sense of myself.

I need to find a simple way

to make this pain just disappear.

I know I'll never feel 

safe in my own skin.