Merry...

X-mas eve. Joyfull laughs and smoking cigars fill
the city. Peace on earth for all people.
Presents beneath the tree filled with flickering lights
and coloured balls. Delicious dinners with to much food
for the not so hungry people who sit by the table.
Outside it's cold and raining. The wind rips the warmth
of bodies apart. He's out there. All by himself searching
for shelter and perhaps some food. He's a cancer on the
city. Something that is not pleased by society.
As he asks for some spare change a man reaches and gives
him a dime. "Merry christmas" and leaves for the warm savety
of his house. He gets laughed at, beaten down into the ground.
It becomes late and he finds a place to spend the night.
Next morning somebody finds a lifeless body in the
alley. Frozen To Death wrapped in some newspapers.
Merry X-mas...

Ghostwishing

Alone in the vast plains, roaming around.
The first stars peek through the thin blancket of clouds.
As he looks to the sky, he sees the clouds fading and disappear.
Astound by what he sees, he keeps his eyes on the black night.
There's no light around, everything is enlighted by billions of
stars which twinkle softly.
Staring at the beauty of the night. No moon to shine on his
lonely soul. He thinks of her.
Sadness comes over his mind cuz she isn't around to
share this moment with him.He sees the stars and wonders if there is any place
out there for both of them to be happy together.
Suddenly a shooting star makes its way through the night.
He thinks of a wish. He wishes that he and the one he loves
would be together forever. Four seconds have past as another
star falls from its place. He wishes that they would be
happy because they would have eachother.
He still thinks of her and a cold breeze strikes his body.
He misses her so bad that he starts crying.
Through the haze of tears he sees a last line of light in the
sky. He thinks of her and carefully picks his last request.
At last he thinks of his wish. That he could take
away all her pain with just one tender kiss.
Time passes and the night seems to never end but
he's still out there, thinking of her...

Lesser of 2 evils

My life is meaningless.
Arisen from the shadows.
Bound to exist with my dark side, where nothing pure remains.
Born to live in this hell that I call home.
A constant battle between evil and good tears my soul apart.
My demons shred what's left inside, leaving nothing
that a hollow shell. Never wanted THIS life...
Tired of my life, of the constant fighting against my own.
There's no other path than the hard way.
No hallucinogetics, no suicide, no pills can help solve
the problems. Nothing's changed, it just keeps on spreading
like a disease.
Destined to die alone in this Sick Sad world. Gradually it
becomes dark, I can see I'm going blind. Blind for all
emotions and beautifull things.
Life isn't so perfect when the pain comes to the surface.

Slave

A pale moon, shadowed by transparent clouds, enlights
the deserted land. The weak glow throws small shadows
on the floor. A lonesome man looks at the world with his
troubled mind. Alone with his pain and misery he stares
at the moon. A cold wind appears as out of nowhere and
hits him in his abscent eyes.
He hasn't known any rest since he crossed paths with that
black widow. She injected her venom which spread over
his body. Emprisoned his heart and soul, he just can't
die. Fading away from reality into a world with
just one goal in mind. So simple but yet so impossible
to achieve. There's no trace of happyness in his
existence, only the fiery desire to accomplisch his quest.
Doomed to continue his path to the Isle of Avalon...
Many problems will appear and fierce warriors have
to be defeated but in the end he'll have to face his greatest
fear. That he has to live with the knowledge that he's
but a slave to his emotions and that there is no
way to break the chains with his faith.
A faith which is linked with hers.

Deathwish

What's it like to die? To become
part of the state of eternal peace. Where there
are no contradictions or complications. How I
Long for simplicity, for your love and tender touch.
Peel off my skin and take a look upon me.
See the toxicity within me, the beginning
of my decomposition. It's just a matter of time before
I break. The pendulum keeps swinging, my time has come.
Taking a step forward, facing my destiny, filled
with fear. I approach the ledge, look at the sky...
Suddenly all my loved ones flash befor my eyes.
A split second but it seems an eternity.
Try to get a grip on myself but then her face comes
to my mind.
Pain grips on to my heart like a steel claw,
piercing through the weak flesh.
Desperate I take the fall into simplicity.

Slipping away

Sick...
The strong feeling which he can't ignore.
He stumbles into the bathroom. Cold as ice
with a heart as black as coal.
Lighting a candle, which gives but a small
circle of light.
The white marble tiles reflect his face.
A face signed by pain and agony.
The black clothes, looking darker than ever,
hide the scars that can't be seen by the
world.
Alone in the weak glow he rises his head.
Trying, forcing himself to look in the mirror.
Not surprised by what he sees, he keeps on
staring into the mirror.
Amazing how much a man can change in a
few days. What once was a good looking young face,
looks like nothing more than a battlefield of
emotions. Bloodshot eyes, still red from the
crying, look hopeless into the mirror.
Still hesitating, contemplating about what to
do. He feels the sickness rising to his head.
Why has she forsaken him? She
hasn't left him yet but he knows
that she can't choose between him and the
other guy. He lost all fate in himself and the
world. Desperately thinking about an alternative,
nothing comes to his mind.
He starts to stripsearch his pockets untill he finds what
he's looking for. The stainless steel reflects the light
as it slides through his wrist. A small concentric
flow of blood finds its way to the drain.
He feels soiled but doesn't care anymore.
The blood keeps running and his love flashes
before his eyes. A red haze hangs before his eyes
and his mind becomes blurry.
Still his thoughts are with her and the blood
looks almost black. Slipping away out of this
life, a single tear runs from his face
with her face in his mind.

Kill me

Now the sun don't shine on me,
now the rain won't even fall.
Please take the pain away from me.
Strangle me with the necklace that
represented my love for you;
Strangle me softly and give me
your tender kiss to take with me on
my far journey.
As I choke and taste you on my lips
I know I'll be closer to you.
But still I wished we could just
be together in real life.
Long enough to show you the meaning
of real love.
I'm slipping away, I can feel the cold
embrace me. Gratefull for what
you have done, I pass from this cruel
world that never loved me