Vermilion

She means so much to me.
I'd do anything to have her to myself.
She is everything to me,
the unrequited dream,
a song that no one sings.
The unattainable...
She is everything and more.
She is something in me
that I can't describe.
That place in my mind
that she calls mine.
She's a myth that I have to believe in.
She took my up and held my hand.
So fragile, yet so strong inside.
I believe in her, when she speaks my name.
My trust in her, growing as we go.
I won't let this build up inside of me.

Broken wings

Bitter tears run from these eyes of mine.
Wondering about the source of all these
teardrops.
Nurse my broken wings, a fallen
angel.
I don't disserve your heaven, your sweet
love which heals all wounds.
Inside I'm filled with love, all yours
and it feels so good.
I've tasted your love, it burns.
Passion flows through my veins as my
heart hurts with missing.
Can't sleep without the thought of you watching
over me.
Let me earn your love as I just want
to stop your hurting.

Needless

Needless to say sorry. Your eyes say more
than sorry can ever express.
Pain and misery fled from my heart
a long time ago.
Never blamed you for the things you said to me.
Never held a grudge in the deepest of my being.
I know you suffered enough as you lived
your life apart from me.
Couldn't bear to see you with someone else.
Still remained supportive because I thought
that it was what you really wanted.
Now I'm so grateful that you chose
to return to me. So thankful
that I bow down on my knees and
think of our future ahead.

Don't speak

This picture replayed in my mind
feels so wrong.
You held me in you arms, our hearts so
close. But yet so far away.
I cried as you spoke the words that
I didn't want to hear.
You made my demons come.
Fled from my heart, you just turned
and walked away.
Not bothering to look back.
I fell from heaven and met my shadow
on the ground.

The fire inside

Restless I've lived for a whole year.
Numb from the worrying.
The heart twisted from doubt and insecurity.
Slowly died inside.
Fed with enough shit to keep on breathing.
Thought I was doing ok but the fire which used to
burn inside was merely a small ember anymore.
All my efforts in vain, I saw love run away
from me. Leaving me alone once again.
Left feeling blue, the sadness in me.
A grey existence, in the shadows of my former self.
Never thought I'd see the day,
where you would rejoin me. To show me
What I have.
This fire reawakened thanks to one person
who never stopped loving me.
The love I so desperately need to survive,
I found it in you.

Am I dreaming?

As I see you speak, watching those lips
form the sentences, I can't help but
think how lucky I am.
Can't imagine that I contributed to the
fact that you're still alive.
I felt so weak and insignificant up to now.
But I realise what I did. Realized
how fortunate this all has been.
I thank the powers that be, for bringing
you finally back to me.
My own source of happiness embodied
by a beautiful butterfly.
A butterfly which just left its cocoon...
Afraid of waking, please
don't shake me.

Lost & found

Dreams of her in the silent white night.
Slumbering while the thought of her resides
in his every cell.
Raw energy pounding inside his body.
Trying to find a way out of the cage within.
Love as pure as the snow that falls
from the heaven's sky.
Love which has been breeding inside for all
those years. Surviving the pain of time and
the bursts of doubt.
Regrets dwell in his mind. Feeling responsible
for the heavy cross that she had to bear.
Certain about his choice to make it worth
while for her. He takes up
his strenght and shares her torment.
Refusing to give up on her, he marches on
and carries her soul along with his own.

Untouchable

So much in love. In love with the
girl of my dreams.
She's so real, standing there. Talking, laughing,
being beautiful like only she can be.
She seems so far away, so untouchable.
I'm afraid to touch her, she's so special to me.
But still all I want is to be with her.
Holding her close as our heartbeats follow
the same rhythm.
She's a butterfly, gently stroking the wind in search
of happiness.
I'm the source of joy, I can give her what
she needs.
Just take my hand and see my eyes.
Drowning into bliss as the love consumes.

Fragile

So many years passed since I'd first experienced
but a glimpse of your love.
Your love, the greatest thng I thought I'd never have.
Tried so long to get over you but never succeeded.
Gave up as my unconditional love prevailed.
Remained slumbering in my heart.
Hoping,
waiting,
hurting.
And now it seems that time is changing.
Bridging our division after all that lost time.
I'd hold you so gently. Afraid that you might
crumble like I am living in a dream.
So I breathe life and stand in this world so cold
with the overwhelming power. The power
to make you happy, untill death catches up with us.

True sight

How would I like to meet you again.
To see your face lit by hundreds of candles.
True beauty come from within...
Won't you show me who's the real you,
hiding from this cold world.
In my dreams I see us meet and
talk the night away.
Share my deepest fears and joy, telling
secrets from deep inside my head.
Looking in your eyes at the reflection of the
flames.
Never wanting to awake and leave this
paradise. Don't want to stop drowning in your
eyes as the words float from my heart.

Silent admirer

I've known you for quite some time.
Trying to comprehend just who you are...
Puzzling the pieces, finding the links
but so many questions arise.
Feeling intrigued by what you unveiled,
my admiration starts to prevail.
Deep down inside a seed was planted,
slowly growing as time passed us by.
Now the light is spreading in me,
thriving the bitter darkness away.
Purified by your being I sit and bide my time.
Untill the time's right
to step up and show you my face.