Disillusion Of Progress

Striding forward, 

seemingly on the frontlines.

Driven by the thought of 

a better time,

a better place,

a better life.

Optimistic with my own capabilities,

certain that I would achieve 

my fabled happiness.

But somehow I've stopped 

dead in my tracks.

Too late as I awake and realise,

I've been sitting here for so long.

Beaten and alone...

Stutter

I took the wrong way home

there's nothing left for me there...

I pretend all of this doesn't bother me,

but my heart it stutters.

And so for now I wither.

Sleepless nights will pass

as my mind races against my will.

After all that time,

I find myself alone still.

As if nothing had changed in 15 years.

Still remained naive and hopeful

while I should have known better.

I will never receive the love I wanted,

she will never be a part of me...

End Of The Day

I stand alone
in the quiet hours of the day
in the dark hours of the night.
Cold heart killing everything in me...
I hate myself more than you ever can.
I know the truth
that there's no love for me.
Forever alone,
I turn my heart in to stone.
Won't be brought down to my knees.
Won't ever beg please,
for some painless release.
Because in the end of the day,
when it's all said and done,
I'm the only one left standing here
alone.

Never Fades

My heart beats strong

driven by her presence within me.

The moment draws nearer

inch by inch and step by step.

Count the minutes until 

I see her smiling face again.

It feels like time slows down every second.

Stretching between now and the moment where I long to be.

So patiently,

I wait for that time.

I just want to spend it with her, 

forget about the world as if nothing else mattered.

So I bide my time and see the minutes become hours,

hours become days.

But the thought of her never fades away.