Past

My mind often dwells in the past. Lately I'm
reminded of a person which I loved.
Reliving the moments of joy and happyness, thoughts
which fill my veins with a desire to start all over.
Slowly the day draws nearer and after all this time I
still didn't forgot. The day when the dream shattered
in my world leaving a chaotic trace of past events.
Absolutely devestated I sat and stared at my
hands not able to think straight. Shaking while weeping
inside, sick of being me in this shit that is my
life. Grabbing my hair and try to control myself though
failing while trying. Was it a mistake to love you?
The time wasn't wasted on you. Every moment of
the day was worth while when you loved me.
Your face was on my mind while my mind was
with you.
But that's a long past even though it hurts sometimes, I
can't forget you. It's easy to feel the pain even
though it fades away.
Close my eyes and fall asleep, I'm already gone.
I'm in way too deep.