Alone in the vast plains, roaming around.
The first stars peek through the thin blancket of clouds.
As he looks to the sky, he sees the clouds fading and disappear.
Astound by what he sees, he keeps his eyes on the black night.
There's no light around, everything is enlighted by billions of
stars which twinkle softly.
Staring at the beauty of the night. No moon to shine on his
lonely soul. He thinks of her.
Sadness comes over his mind cuz she isn't around to
share this moment with him.He sees the stars and wonders if there is any place
out there for both of them to be happy together.
Suddenly a shooting star makes its way through the night.
He thinks of a wish. He wishes that he and the one he loves
would be together forever. Four seconds have past as another
star falls from its place. He wishes that they would be
happy because they would have eachother.
He still thinks of her and a cold breeze strikes his body.
He misses her so bad that he starts crying.
Through the haze of tears he sees a last line of light in the
sky. He thinks of her and carefully picks his last request.
At last he thinks of his wish. That he could take
away all her pain with just one tender kiss.
Time passes and the night seems to never end but
he's still out there, thinking of her...
1.1.01
Lesser of 2 evils
My life is meaningless.
Arisen from the shadows.
Bound to exist with my dark side, where nothing pure remains.
Born to live in this hell that I call home.
A constant battle between evil and good tears my soul apart.
My demons shred what's left inside, leaving nothing
that a hollow shell. Never wanted THIS life...
Tired of my life, of the constant fighting against my own.
There's no other path than the hard way.
No hallucinogetics, no suicide, no pills can help solve
the problems. Nothing's changed, it just keeps on spreading
like a disease.
Destined to die alone in this Sick Sad world. Gradually it
becomes dark, I can see I'm going blind. Blind for all
emotions and beautifull things.
Life isn't so perfect when the pain comes to the surface.
Arisen from the shadows.
Bound to exist with my dark side, where nothing pure remains.
Born to live in this hell that I call home.
A constant battle between evil and good tears my soul apart.
My demons shred what's left inside, leaving nothing
that a hollow shell. Never wanted THIS life...
Tired of my life, of the constant fighting against my own.
There's no other path than the hard way.
No hallucinogetics, no suicide, no pills can help solve
the problems. Nothing's changed, it just keeps on spreading
like a disease.
Destined to die alone in this Sick Sad world. Gradually it
becomes dark, I can see I'm going blind. Blind for all
emotions and beautifull things.
Life isn't so perfect when the pain comes to the surface.
Slave
A pale moon, shadowed by transparent clouds, enlights
the deserted land. The weak glow throws small shadows
on the floor. A lonesome man looks at the world with his
troubled mind. Alone with his pain and misery he stares
at the moon. A cold wind appears as out of nowhere and
hits him in his abscent eyes.
He hasn't known any rest since he crossed paths with that
black widow. She injected her venom which spread over
his body. Emprisoned his heart and soul, he just can't
die. Fading away from reality into a world with
just one goal in mind. So simple but yet so impossible
to achieve. There's no trace of happyness in his
existence, only the fiery desire to accomplisch his quest.
Doomed to continue his path to the Isle of Avalon...
Many problems will appear and fierce warriors have
to be defeated but in the end he'll have to face his greatest
fear. That he has to live with the knowledge that he's
but a slave to his emotions and that there is no
way to break the chains with his faith.
A faith which is linked with hers.
the deserted land. The weak glow throws small shadows
on the floor. A lonesome man looks at the world with his
troubled mind. Alone with his pain and misery he stares
at the moon. A cold wind appears as out of nowhere and
hits him in his abscent eyes.
He hasn't known any rest since he crossed paths with that
black widow. She injected her venom which spread over
his body. Emprisoned his heart and soul, he just can't
die. Fading away from reality into a world with
just one goal in mind. So simple but yet so impossible
to achieve. There's no trace of happyness in his
existence, only the fiery desire to accomplisch his quest.
Doomed to continue his path to the Isle of Avalon...
Many problems will appear and fierce warriors have
to be defeated but in the end he'll have to face his greatest
fear. That he has to live with the knowledge that he's
but a slave to his emotions and that there is no
way to break the chains with his faith.
A faith which is linked with hers.
Deathwish
What's it like to die? To become
part of the state of eternal peace. Where there
are no contradictions or complications. How I
Long for simplicity, for your love and tender touch.
Peel off my skin and take a look upon me.
See the toxicity within me, the beginning
of my decomposition. It's just a matter of time before
I break. The pendulum keeps swinging, my time has come.
Taking a step forward, facing my destiny, filled
with fear. I approach the ledge, look at the sky...
Suddenly all my loved ones flash befor my eyes.
A split second but it seems an eternity.
Try to get a grip on myself but then her face comes
to my mind.
Pain grips on to my heart like a steel claw,
piercing through the weak flesh.
Desperate I take the fall into simplicity.
part of the state of eternal peace. Where there
are no contradictions or complications. How I
Long for simplicity, for your love and tender touch.
Peel off my skin and take a look upon me.
See the toxicity within me, the beginning
of my decomposition. It's just a matter of time before
I break. The pendulum keeps swinging, my time has come.
Taking a step forward, facing my destiny, filled
with fear. I approach the ledge, look at the sky...
Suddenly all my loved ones flash befor my eyes.
A split second but it seems an eternity.
Try to get a grip on myself but then her face comes
to my mind.
Pain grips on to my heart like a steel claw,
piercing through the weak flesh.
Desperate I take the fall into simplicity.
Slipping away
Sick...
The strong feeling which he can't ignore.
He stumbles into the bathroom. Cold as ice
with a heart as black as coal.
Lighting a candle, which gives but a small
circle of light.
The white marble tiles reflect his face.
A face signed by pain and agony.
The black clothes, looking darker than ever,
hide the scars that can't be seen by the
world.
Alone in the weak glow he rises his head.
Trying, forcing himself to look in the mirror.
Not surprised by what he sees, he keeps on
staring into the mirror.
Amazing how much a man can change in a
few days. What once was a good looking young face,
looks like nothing more than a battlefield of
emotions. Bloodshot eyes, still red from the
crying, look hopeless into the mirror.
Still hesitating, contemplating about what to
do. He feels the sickness rising to his head.
Why has she forsaken him? She
hasn't left him yet but he knows
that she can't choose between him and the
other guy. He lost all fate in himself and the
world. Desperately thinking about an alternative,
nothing comes to his mind.
He starts to stripsearch his pockets untill he finds what
he's looking for. The stainless steel reflects the light
as it slides through his wrist. A small concentric
flow of blood finds its way to the drain.
He feels soiled but doesn't care anymore.
The blood keeps running and his love flashes
before his eyes. A red haze hangs before his eyes
and his mind becomes blurry.
Still his thoughts are with her and the blood
looks almost black. Slipping away out of this
life, a single tear runs from his face
with her face in his mind.
The strong feeling which he can't ignore.
He stumbles into the bathroom. Cold as ice
with a heart as black as coal.
Lighting a candle, which gives but a small
circle of light.
The white marble tiles reflect his face.
A face signed by pain and agony.
The black clothes, looking darker than ever,
hide the scars that can't be seen by the
world.
Alone in the weak glow he rises his head.
Trying, forcing himself to look in the mirror.
Not surprised by what he sees, he keeps on
staring into the mirror.
Amazing how much a man can change in a
few days. What once was a good looking young face,
looks like nothing more than a battlefield of
emotions. Bloodshot eyes, still red from the
crying, look hopeless into the mirror.
Still hesitating, contemplating about what to
do. He feels the sickness rising to his head.
Why has she forsaken him? She
hasn't left him yet but he knows
that she can't choose between him and the
other guy. He lost all fate in himself and the
world. Desperately thinking about an alternative,
nothing comes to his mind.
He starts to stripsearch his pockets untill he finds what
he's looking for. The stainless steel reflects the light
as it slides through his wrist. A small concentric
flow of blood finds its way to the drain.
He feels soiled but doesn't care anymore.
The blood keeps running and his love flashes
before his eyes. A red haze hangs before his eyes
and his mind becomes blurry.
Still his thoughts are with her and the blood
looks almost black. Slipping away out of this
life, a single tear runs from his face
with her face in his mind.
Kill me
Now the sun don't shine on me,
now the rain won't even fall.
Please take the pain away from me.
Strangle me with the necklace that
represented my love for you;
Strangle me softly and give me
your tender kiss to take with me on
my far journey.
As I choke and taste you on my lips
I know I'll be closer to you.
But still I wished we could just
be together in real life.
Long enough to show you the meaning
of real love.
I'm slipping away, I can feel the cold
embrace me. Gratefull for what
you have done, I pass from this cruel
world that never loved me
now the rain won't even fall.
Please take the pain away from me.
Strangle me with the necklace that
represented my love for you;
Strangle me softly and give me
your tender kiss to take with me on
my far journey.
As I choke and taste you on my lips
I know I'll be closer to you.
But still I wished we could just
be together in real life.
Long enough to show you the meaning
of real love.
I'm slipping away, I can feel the cold
embrace me. Gratefull for what
you have done, I pass from this cruel
world that never loved me
Forsaken
4 months of pain and sadness. There ain't
nobody but one person who can help.
The same person that has put him in this
state of mind, only she can make him
love life again.
Everytime he thinks of her a flood of
tears runs through his mind.
He has never stopped loving her, not for
one second. Even his dreams were filled
with her bottomless eyes and her pretty face.
He was sure that she didn't love him
anymore and that crushed his heart and soul.
Why had she forsaken him? In her eyes, in her
mind and in her heart.
Lost in a world that nobody disserves to live in,
he hangs around with her on his thoughts still
hoping for her to return
nobody but one person who can help.
The same person that has put him in this
state of mind, only she can make him
love life again.
Everytime he thinks of her a flood of
tears runs through his mind.
He has never stopped loving her, not for
one second. Even his dreams were filled
with her bottomless eyes and her pretty face.
He was sure that she didn't love him
anymore and that crushed his heart and soul.
Why had she forsaken him? In her eyes, in her
mind and in her heart.
Lost in a world that nobody disserves to live in,
he hangs around with her on his thoughts still
hoping for her to return
I am nothing
Wondering why I live, why I soil this world...
Left with no one in my life. I am so alone.
I don't want to be left behind, alone in my bedroom.
Alone with my pain. I am nothing.
I'm already dead to this world.
Never born, never grown, never loved, only the
constant pain under my skin. It feels like I
have a fucking needle in my head.
Afraid of death but yet I'm dying in my head.
Rotting away the few memories that I have.
And in the end there's only the pain that
won't go away.
Left with no one in my life. I am so alone.
I don't want to be left behind, alone in my bedroom.
Alone with my pain. I am nothing.
I'm already dead to this world.
Never born, never grown, never loved, only the
constant pain under my skin. It feels like I
have a fucking needle in my head.
Afraid of death but yet I'm dying in my head.
Rotting away the few memories that I have.
And in the end there's only the pain that
won't go away.
Don't leave
Scared, a tension builds up in my body.
Not knowing if you're still alive or
if you're dead.
The pills ease the pain...
The pills kill the pain and sadness...
The pills just kill.
I can't lose you, my only soulmate.
As you would disappear from this world,
fading into the realm of peace and eternal rest,
I would cry by your tomb, cursing myself and
the world.
Cuz they couldn't save the most beautifull person.
Not knowing if you're still alive or
if you're dead.
The pills ease the pain...
The pills kill the pain and sadness...
The pills just kill.
I can't lose you, my only soulmate.
As you would disappear from this world,
fading into the realm of peace and eternal rest,
I would cry by your tomb, cursing myself and
the world.
Cuz they couldn't save the most beautifull person.
Cold
It's ten o'clock as I walk with the river.
Sweat runs from my back but I don't even notice it.
I keep hearing these voices, they
tell me to take my own life.
As I stare into the sky I see the night
spreading it's dark sheet over the world.
I look in the river and see myself and
the first stars appear. I see myself screaming
but nothing's coming out.
Why have you left me alone in this wicked
world where everything's so beautifull.
I lay my head down and think of you.
While watching the sky I lose all notice of
time.
It becomes cold. Cold in my head and a thin
layer of fog appears on the surface of the
water. My troubled mind can't find any peace.
A new day breaks the last remains of what
once was a man who loved the woman of
his dreams
Sweat runs from my back but I don't even notice it.
I keep hearing these voices, they
tell me to take my own life.
As I stare into the sky I see the night
spreading it's dark sheet over the world.
I look in the river and see myself and
the first stars appear. I see myself screaming
but nothing's coming out.
Why have you left me alone in this wicked
world where everything's so beautifull.
I lay my head down and think of you.
While watching the sky I lose all notice of
time.
It becomes cold. Cold in my head and a thin
layer of fog appears on the surface of the
water. My troubled mind can't find any peace.
A new day breaks the last remains of what
once was a man who loved the woman of
his dreams
Missing
I feared your loss.
Missing you is the only option.
It's all so terribly fucked up.
Seeing you saying the words I never wanted to hear.
Sick of myself, crying in a corner. I knew from the
Beginning that this wouldn't last forever.
Realize that
I love you still.
Thoughts of you go through my mind. But
This is the end...
Missing you is the only option.
It's all so terribly fucked up.
Seeing you saying the words I never wanted to hear.
Sick of myself, crying in a corner. I knew from the
Beginning that this wouldn't last forever.
Realize that
I love you still.
Thoughts of you go through my mind. But
This is the end...
Lost love
As I sit here in the middle of the afternoon, wondering
why, a tear runs from my face.
I look up at the black sky.
There's no more sun and all the stars have died.
Total darkness, in the sky, in my mind,
in my heart.
I can't even feel the love anymore,
the love for life,the love for my friends.
I'm still staring into the black hole above me.
I hear a baby crying and can't stand it anymore.
I fall, face to the floor. I'm (SIC) of myself.
Can't stand to ever look at my face again.
I despise myself and start crying.
Still wondering why, I lay crying on the
floor, totally paralized.
All I wanted life was to be happy
why, a tear runs from my face.
I look up at the black sky.
There's no more sun and all the stars have died.
Total darkness, in the sky, in my mind,
in my heart.
I can't even feel the love anymore,
the love for life,the love for my friends.
I'm still staring into the black hole above me.
I hear a baby crying and can't stand it anymore.
I fall, face to the floor. I'm (SIC) of myself.
Can't stand to ever look at my face again.
I despise myself and start crying.
Still wondering why, I lay crying on the
floor, totally paralized.
All I wanted life was to be happy
Apocalyptic warrior of death
I saw a man coming near. He looks like a knight, with his
broad sword so sharp and deadly.
I asked him what he wanted, he said he came to help me.
To help me to stop the pain and suffering. I asked him how and
he hesitated...
"By killing you." I looked in his black eyes and told him
that I had been longing for that moment. He smiled and a
shiver went through my spine.
As he pulled out his blade a feeling of fear went
through my mind. I asked him what his name was.
And as he planted the sword in my chest he said:
"I'm the apocaliptic warrior of death"
broad sword so sharp and deadly.
I asked him what he wanted, he said he came to help me.
To help me to stop the pain and suffering. I asked him how and
he hesitated...
"By killing you." I looked in his black eyes and told him
that I had been longing for that moment. He smiled and a
shiver went through my spine.
As he pulled out his blade a feeling of fear went
through my mind. I asked him what his name was.
And as he planted the sword in my chest he said:
"I'm the apocaliptic warrior of death"
Behind the scenes
Do I look happy enough?
Is nobody expecting that there's something wrong?
Who would care anyway? Since I've lost you
nobody does.
On the outside everything looks fine and good
but behind the scenes there's chaos. Caused by
that one sentence "I don't love you anymore..."
I crashed, collapsed. It might have seemed that
I wasn't hurt too much. Hell it still might seem
like that. But the ones who really know me are
crying with me. I love them for that.
So as you see me walking out of that door
know that I'm one step closer to my death.
A death so lonely as the only kiss
we've had.
Is nobody expecting that there's something wrong?
Who would care anyway? Since I've lost you
nobody does.
On the outside everything looks fine and good
but behind the scenes there's chaos. Caused by
that one sentence "I don't love you anymore..."
I crashed, collapsed. It might have seemed that
I wasn't hurt too much. Hell it still might seem
like that. But the ones who really know me are
crying with me. I love them for that.
So as you see me walking out of that door
know that I'm one step closer to my death.
A death so lonely as the only kiss
we've had.
Dream
Once more...
once more have I been sent to my Hell.
I couldn't believe it, Not you.
After all that we've been through...
Maybe your parents were right, 'bout you being
too young to really love. Too young to realize
what you've done.
Those words you said ripped my soul in pieces.
Your smile crushed my body.
You giving back my dog-tag broke my heart.
When I woke up this morning, I thought it was
all a dream, a nightmare. Thought that
everything would be ok, that you would
never ever leave me.
Once more I'm crying for you, blaming
myself. Again that it's my fault.
Why can't I be loved by someone that
Won't leave me, without saying "I love you"
and giving me a tender kiss.
Once you were my saviour,
now you're my doom...
once more have I been sent to my Hell.
I couldn't believe it, Not you.
After all that we've been through...
Maybe your parents were right, 'bout you being
too young to really love. Too young to realize
what you've done.
Those words you said ripped my soul in pieces.
Your smile crushed my body.
You giving back my dog-tag broke my heart.
When I woke up this morning, I thought it was
all a dream, a nightmare. Thought that
everything would be ok, that you would
never ever leave me.
Once more I'm crying for you, blaming
myself. Again that it's my fault.
Why can't I be loved by someone that
Won't leave me, without saying "I love you"
and giving me a tender kiss.
Once you were my saviour,
now you're my doom...
Fear²
I'm scared, frightened.
I've never felt a fear so intense, so strong
before your letter arrived.
I couldn't sleep, I sat in front of my
window crying. Afraid of what you might do,
for the nightmare that's in front of me.
I can't think straight anymore, I'm worried 'bout you.
Where are you?
What are you doing?
I knew that you've been through a lot of pain.
But when I see you it looks like everything is fine.
It's so hard to know what you're feeling when I'm
not around you.
When I read 'bout your suicidal feeling my heart stopped
for a second.
I have the feeling that I can't help you. That I can't
save you from your fall.
Don't leave me here to wither and die without you.
Don't let me return to my little corner.
The corner of suicidal death and sadness, of dark thoughts
and pain.
Save yourself and so my heart and soul.
I've never felt a fear so intense, so strong
before your letter arrived.
I couldn't sleep, I sat in front of my
window crying. Afraid of what you might do,
for the nightmare that's in front of me.
I can't think straight anymore, I'm worried 'bout you.
Where are you?
What are you doing?
I knew that you've been through a lot of pain.
But when I see you it looks like everything is fine.
It's so hard to know what you're feeling when I'm
not around you.
When I read 'bout your suicidal feeling my heart stopped
for a second.
I have the feeling that I can't help you. That I can't
save you from your fall.
Don't leave me here to wither and die without you.
Don't let me return to my little corner.
The corner of suicidal death and sadness, of dark thoughts
and pain.
Save yourself and so my heart and soul.
Zonder jou
Ieder moment zonder jou maakt me bang.
Bang dat je zal verdwijnen in de nevel,
en mij achterlaat.
Dat ik verloren ben in de mist, alleen zonder ziel.
De duistere armen van de nacht die mij omhelzen,
zo mijn angst versterkend.
Maar dan kom ik terug tot de realiteit.
Breekt de zon door de mist.
Toch heb ik nog steeds de angst dat het
ongeluk in een klein hoekje schuilt en
ons zo uit elkaar kan scheuren.
Maar dat mag niet gebeuren,
het kan niet gebeuren.
Omdat ik zo intens van je hou.
Het brandend verlangen naar jouw lichaam en ziel.
Jouw warme liefde die mijn leven zin geeft.
Bang dat je zal verdwijnen in de nevel,
en mij achterlaat.
Dat ik verloren ben in de mist, alleen zonder ziel.
De duistere armen van de nacht die mij omhelzen,
zo mijn angst versterkend.
Maar dan kom ik terug tot de realiteit.
Breekt de zon door de mist.
Toch heb ik nog steeds de angst dat het
ongeluk in een klein hoekje schuilt en
ons zo uit elkaar kan scheuren.
Maar dat mag niet gebeuren,
het kan niet gebeuren.
Omdat ik zo intens van je hou.
Het brandend verlangen naar jouw lichaam en ziel.
Jouw warme liefde die mijn leven zin geeft.
Mijn gevoelens voor jou
Mijn gevoelens voor jou...
Ze zijn oprecht, recht van uit het hart.
En iedere keer dat ik aan je denk wordt ik
overspoeld door jouw liefde.
Wat zou er met mij gebeuren als jij me
zou verlaten. Ik zou sterven, eerst psychisch
en daarna fysisch nadat ik een kogel door mijn kop heb gejaagd.
Ik zal altijd van je blijven houden, nooit zal ik van
jouw zijde wijken.
Als alles slecht gaat ben ik er voor jou op elk
moment van mijn leven.
Heb me lief, hou van me,
zoals ik jou altijd zal liefhebben.
Ik hou van jou
I love you
Je t'aime
Ich liebe dich...
Ze zijn oprecht, recht van uit het hart.
En iedere keer dat ik aan je denk wordt ik
overspoeld door jouw liefde.
Wat zou er met mij gebeuren als jij me
zou verlaten. Ik zou sterven, eerst psychisch
en daarna fysisch nadat ik een kogel door mijn kop heb gejaagd.
Ik zal altijd van je blijven houden, nooit zal ik van
jouw zijde wijken.
Als alles slecht gaat ben ik er voor jou op elk
moment van mijn leven.
Heb me lief, hou van me,
zoals ik jou altijd zal liefhebben.
Ik hou van jou
I love you
Je t'aime
Ich liebe dich...
Knowledge
You know that I love you.
If you only knew how much...
There's nothing that I wouldn't
do for you.
We saved eachother from a fall,
a fall that would have killed us both.
I wonder what would have happened if I
never told you how i feel.
I'd probably be crying in a corner,
alone without you.
All the shit I've been through,
all the pain inside fades when
I think of you.
The knowledge that you love me,
means more to me than anything
in the world.
Never leave me, don't let me
fall. A life without you is
torture. Every second without
you is hell.
I testify...
I love you
(dedicated to britt)
If you only knew how much...
There's nothing that I wouldn't
do for you.
We saved eachother from a fall,
a fall that would have killed us both.
I wonder what would have happened if I
never told you how i feel.
I'd probably be crying in a corner,
alone without you.
All the shit I've been through,
all the pain inside fades when
I think of you.
The knowledge that you love me,
means more to me than anything
in the world.
Never leave me, don't let me
fall. A life without you is
torture. Every second without
you is hell.
I testify...
I love you
(dedicated to britt)
Death
Why am I alive?
Knowing that noone cares for me.
Alone on this fucked up world where
everybody hurts another. There's no more
trust and no more reasons to keep on living.
The same sentence keeps on running through
my head. I'm seriously contemplating suicide.
Death is fine, give me mine.
Knowing that noone cares for me.
Alone on this fucked up world where
everybody hurts another. There's no more
trust and no more reasons to keep on living.
The same sentence keeps on running through
my head. I'm seriously contemplating suicide.
Death is fine, give me mine.
Silence
This is my world.
An apocalyptic silence hangs around my room.
The sounds of the world are mute.
It's dark outside and I'm staring out of
the window.
Ten past midnight, everybody's asleep.
Dreaming about their deepest wishes and happy
untill the sun comes up.
I'm a creature of the night.
Sitting alone thinking about you.
As I think of you a smile appears, a
profound happiness takes control of me.
But then I return to reality and know
that I'm afraid to show my love for you.
Afraid of getting hurt again.
An apocalyptic silence hangs around my room.
The sounds of the world are mute.
It's dark outside and I'm staring out of
the window.
Ten past midnight, everybody's asleep.
Dreaming about their deepest wishes and happy
untill the sun comes up.
I'm a creature of the night.
Sitting alone thinking about you.
As I think of you a smile appears, a
profound happiness takes control of me.
But then I return to reality and know
that I'm afraid to show my love for you.
Afraid of getting hurt again.
pAIn
That feeling you gave me
filled me with a lot of thoughts.
The pain is never ending.
It has become a friend of mine.
Something that I wouldn't want
to lose. It never leaves
my side, always in the neighbourhood.
Most people can't stand it and try
to put an end to it. But it's part
of our existence. If you can't take
the pain, then you're doomed
to die.
Like I have done before.
filled me with a lot of thoughts.
The pain is never ending.
It has become a friend of mine.
Something that I wouldn't want
to lose. It never leaves
my side, always in the neighbourhood.
Most people can't stand it and try
to put an end to it. But it's part
of our existence. If you can't take
the pain, then you're doomed
to die.
Like I have done before.
Agony
Life is a bitch
that'll be what I'll be thinking of in
my last moments of life.
But still I'll be thinking that I've
enjoyed it. This contradiction is
so strange and yet it makes sense.
In the moments of pain you know
you're alive. Your agony feels like
bliss when you know you're not
far from your death.
Still, I long for death. For the
eternal state of peace, no more
pain and no more suffering.
No more love...
that'll be what I'll be thinking of in
my last moments of life.
But still I'll be thinking that I've
enjoyed it. This contradiction is
so strange and yet it makes sense.
In the moments of pain you know
you're alive. Your agony feels like
bliss when you know you're not
far from your death.
Still, I long for death. For the
eternal state of peace, no more
pain and no more suffering.
No more love...
Fair
Is this existence a happy one?
Are all people happy?
Is all this shit perfect?
I'd rather die than confirm that shit.
Nothing that has happened in the past
was fair.
Every time again we get hurt by
the people we love. Again and Again
screwed over, I'm sick of it.
From now on my love is true.
My love 4 my people will be unconditional.
No more pain, real feelings and no more bullshit.
Every motherfucker that I'll cross will pay
for the shit he did.
I only love the ones who disserve it.
Only the ones with a pure heart earn my respect.
Only a few will receive my heart.
Are all people happy?
Is all this shit perfect?
I'd rather die than confirm that shit.
Nothing that has happened in the past
was fair.
Every time again we get hurt by
the people we love. Again and Again
screwed over, I'm sick of it.
From now on my love is true.
My love 4 my people will be unconditional.
No more pain, real feelings and no more bullshit.
Every motherfucker that I'll cross will pay
for the shit he did.
I only love the ones who disserve it.
Only the ones with a pure heart earn my respect.
Only a few will receive my heart.
Thank you
Thnx for the help you gave me for the
support I've received.
If it wasn't for for you I'd been kissed by death.
You showed me a reason to keep on living,
gave me a way to forget the pain.
My love for you is never ending.
This feeling I have is more than just being grateful
and far more stronger than love.
If I would try to say thank you, I would be
thanking you untill eternity.
Though the pain is not out of this world and
even you can't be happy. Think of
me and know that in the end
the pain will fade away.
dedicated to britt (I love you)
support I've received.
If it wasn't for for you I'd been kissed by death.
You showed me a reason to keep on living,
gave me a way to forget the pain.
My love for you is never ending.
This feeling I have is more than just being grateful
and far more stronger than love.
If I would try to say thank you, I would be
thanking you untill eternity.
Though the pain is not out of this world and
even you can't be happy. Think of
me and know that in the end
the pain will fade away.
dedicated to britt (I love you)
Life
Do I love life?
Do i enjoy the same shit that I cross every day?
NO
I wanna die.
Would anyone care if I'd take my life?
Cut my throat when noone is looking.
Nobody cares for me. I'm all alone on this world.
My family is worth nothing. They don't see the pain and suffering.
Everyone lives in their own little world, scared to come out and
face reality.The reality is that everybody dies.
So what if I die 2day?
Do i enjoy the same shit that I cross every day?
NO
I wanna die.
Would anyone care if I'd take my life?
Cut my throat when noone is looking.
Nobody cares for me. I'm all alone on this world.
My family is worth nothing. They don't see the pain and suffering.
Everyone lives in their own little world, scared to come out and
face reality.The reality is that everybody dies.
So what if I die 2day?
Over jij
Ik denk aan jij
aan jij bij mij
Ik weet dat ik van jij
niet veel weet maar dat ik lichter
ben als je bent bij mij.
Overal vreet de nacht zich in
maar in onze eigen nacht,
daar besta jij.
je bestaat voor mij.
Jij
bestaat voor mij.
aan jij bij mij
Ik weet dat ik van jij
niet veel weet maar dat ik lichter
ben als je bent bij mij.
Overal vreet de nacht zich in
maar in onze eigen nacht,
daar besta jij.
je bestaat voor mij.
Jij
bestaat voor mij.
Break
I beLIEved in your love.
Thought it would stay 4 a while.
Now I'm broken, dead, burned.
Totally bled out,
no way to save me now,
I'm too far gone.
When I see you smile,
happy with Him,
I think of myself
that it's all my
fault.
I did this to myself.
I was totally ignorant and blind.
I can't save myself,
no one can...
Thought it would stay 4 a while.
Now I'm broken, dead, burned.
Totally bled out,
no way to save me now,
I'm too far gone.
When I see you smile,
happy with Him,
I think of myself
that it's all my
fault.
I did this to myself.
I was totally ignorant and blind.
I can't save myself,
no one can...
Bang
Bang, a shot in the broad daylight. Another Homie falls
to the ground, struck by a blow. More powerfull
than anything on earth. The kiss of death is bitter.
As he lies there in agony he thinks of the past.
A past that was 2 perfect for the both of them.
He and the chosen one, the one he loved.
And when he sees her face slipping away a
tear runs from his face.
to the ground, struck by a blow. More powerfull
than anything on earth. The kiss of death is bitter.
As he lies there in agony he thinks of the past.
A past that was 2 perfect for the both of them.
He and the chosen one, the one he loved.
And when he sees her face slipping away a
tear runs from his face.
Pain made to order
I have died. Killed by the one I loved.
Killed by a blow that I didn't see coming,
never expecting that to happen.
I'm sorry if you thought that I was laughing
with the situation. It's my way to hide the
pain.
I'm sorry if I didn't fought enough 4 our love.
I'm sorry that I didn't seem to care, but believe
me I've never felt so bad after a break-up. Never...
I'm sorry that we can't be together anymore.
I hope you may be happy one day while I'll
be sitting in a corner crying and thinking of the
best time of my life...
Killed by a blow that I didn't see coming,
never expecting that to happen.
I'm sorry if you thought that I was laughing
with the situation. It's my way to hide the
pain.
I'm sorry if I didn't fought enough 4 our love.
I'm sorry that I didn't seem to care, but believe
me I've never felt so bad after a break-up. Never...
I'm sorry that we can't be together anymore.
I hope you may be happy one day while I'll
be sitting in a corner crying and thinking of the
best time of my life...
Fear
Your emotions 4 me are 2 good.
I don't disserve them. It seems like I
can't take the doubts away, even if I try
as hard as I can.
I want to comfort you, tell you that
everything's gonna be okay.
The fear inside of you, the fear 4 the
future, shouldn't be there.
Fuck the future, there's no
future, there's only now...
Now when I'm with you.
I know I've said a lot of shit
but remember that I love
You. And all the bad things that
are going to happen won't be
so bad cuz I'll always be
there to support and protect you
I don't disserve them. It seems like I
can't take the doubts away, even if I try
as hard as I can.
I want to comfort you, tell you that
everything's gonna be okay.
The fear inside of you, the fear 4 the
future, shouldn't be there.
Fuck the future, there's no
future, there's only now...
Now when I'm with you.
I know I've said a lot of shit
but remember that I love
You. And all the bad things that
are going to happen won't be
so bad cuz I'll always be
there to support and protect you
Never
I never wanna lose you.
It looks like I'm afraid of being alone again.
Knowing that no one out there would care for
me. That I would be a shadow in the dark.
Living alone in a fucked up neighbourhood, thinking
of the past. Like it was a dream, an illusion.
Then I realize it's the reality and that it's right
in front of me.
The "illusion" is real. You are standing there, so
beautiful, so fragile. My all, my most
precious treasure.
I'm scared for the future, every day is
torture. Every day without you I'm dying,
over and over again.
Living in agony, a pain that never dies.
Hoping and praying that you would never
leave me, though I know this love can't
be eternal.
But when I see you I know I'll fight 'till
death to keep loving you, cuz you are
worth it.
It looks like I'm afraid of being alone again.
Knowing that no one out there would care for
me. That I would be a shadow in the dark.
Living alone in a fucked up neighbourhood, thinking
of the past. Like it was a dream, an illusion.
Then I realize it's the reality and that it's right
in front of me.
The "illusion" is real. You are standing there, so
beautiful, so fragile. My all, my most
precious treasure.
I'm scared for the future, every day is
torture. Every day without you I'm dying,
over and over again.
Living in agony, a pain that never dies.
Hoping and praying that you would never
leave me, though I know this love can't
be eternal.
But when I see you I know I'll fight 'till
death to keep loving you, cuz you are
worth it.
4U
Why did I wait so long?
Knowing that you were all alone.
I thought that I wouldn't stand a chance.
I didn't know better.
I've been waiting 4ever, waiting 4 the perfect
moment. Every second, thinking and longing 4 U.
When you were around, feeling lonely, I was
watching, admiring.
Looking at your beautifull face, trying to catch
a glimp of your deep brown eyes.
I had to try.
I knew that I had to take the first step.
Now I'm the one. The one
you love.
I'm so gratefull that I can't tell you how
I feel. There's no way I can pay you
back, but my plan is 2 show you that
I understand.
I love U, and only U.
(Dedicated to Elke)
Knowing that you were all alone.
I thought that I wouldn't stand a chance.
I didn't know better.
I've been waiting 4ever, waiting 4 the perfect
moment. Every second, thinking and longing 4 U.
When you were around, feeling lonely, I was
watching, admiring.
Looking at your beautifull face, trying to catch
a glimp of your deep brown eyes.
I had to try.
I knew that I had to take the first step.
Now I'm the one. The one
you love.
I'm so gratefull that I can't tell you how
I feel. There's no way I can pay you
back, but my plan is 2 show you that
I understand.
I love U, and only U.
(Dedicated to Elke)
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